If I was ever going to gain quality sobriety, I had to rediscover my own native roots at the same time. I practiced letting go of all the hurt, the resentments, the feelings of inadequacy. Through the practice of the Twelve Steps of AA, I addressed my own spirituality.
We were in a position where life was becoming impossible, and if we had passed into the region from which there is no return through human aid, we had but two alternatives: One was to go on to the bitter end, blotting out the consciousness of our intolerable situation as best we could; and the other, to accept spiritual help.
Big Book pg. 24
It is plain that a life which includes deep resentment leads only to futility and unhappiness. To the precise extent that we permit these, do we squander the hours that might have been worth while. But with the alcoholic, whose hope is the maintenance and growth of a spiritual experience, this business of resentment is infinitely grave. We found it is fatal. For when harboring such feelings we shut ourselves off from the sunlight of the Spirit. The insanity of alcohol returns and we drink again. And with us, to drink is to die.
Big Book pg. 66
Grandfather, Grandmother guide our spiritual journey.