"But in the Indian
Spirit the land is still vested; it will be until other men are able to divine
and meet its rhythm. Men must be born and reborn to belong. Their bodies must
be formed of the dust of their forefathers' bones."
Luther
Standing Bear Oglala Sioux
Thus
was I convinced that God is concerned with us humans when we want Him enough.
At long last I saw, I felt, I believed. Scales of pride and prejudice fell from
my eyes. A new world came into view.
The
real significance of my experience in the Cathedral burst upon me. For a brief
moment, I had needed and wanted God. There had been a humble willingness to
have Him with me--and He came. But soon the sense of His presence had been
blotted out by worldly clamors, mostly those within myself. And so it had been
ever since. How blind I had been.
At
the hospital I was separated from alcohol for the last time. Treatment seemed
wise, for I showed signs of delirium tremens.
There
I humbly offered myself to God, as I then understood Him, to do with me as He
would. I placed myself unreservedly under His care and direction. I admitted
for the first time that of myself I was nothing; that without Him I was lost. I
ruthlessly faced my sins and became willing to have my new-found Friend take them
away, root and branch. I have not had a drink since.
Big
Book pgs. 12 & 13
Grandfather help me be willing to walk in a spiritual way.