“ Grandfather, Great Spirit, once more behold
me on earth and lean to hear my feeble voice. You lived first, and You are
older than all need, older than all prayer...You are the life of all things."
Black Elk Oglala Sioux
Almost any A.A. will tell how his affairs have taken remarkable and unexpected turns for the better as he tried to improve his conscious contact with God. He will also report that out of every season of grief or suffering, when the hand of God seemed heavy or even unjust, new lessons for living were learned, new resources of courage were uncovered, and that finally, inescapably, the conviction came that God does "move in a mysterious way his wonders to perform."
All this should be very
encouraging news for those who recoil from prayer because they don't believe in
it, or because they feel themselves cut off from God's help and direction. All
of us, without exception, pass through times when we can pray only with the
greatest exertion of will. Occasionally we go even further than this. We are
seized with a rebellion so sickening that we simply won't pray. When these
things happen we should not think too ill of ourselves. We simply resume prayer
as soon as we can, doing what we know to be good for us. Perhaps one of the
greatest rewards of meditation and prayer is the sense of belonging that comes to us.
We no longer live in a completely hostile world. We are no longer lost and
frightened and purposeless. The moment we catch even a glimpse of God's will,
the moment we begin to see truth, justice, and love as the real and eternal
things in life, we are no longer deeply disturbed by all the seeming evidence
to the contrary that surrounds us in purely human affairs. We know that God
lovingly watches over us. We know that when we turn to Him, all will be well
with us, here and hereafter.
Twelve Steps & Twelve Traditions pg. 105