Man is a spirit, a spark from the cosmic fire who needs to burn toward God. God burns toward man and that union is the far off divine event. But there is no union except in perfect freedom, never, except when the will and love in the free soul are traveling to bring the whole man, body and soul, and the whole society, in freedom to the mystical cosmic alter.
Instead of regarding ourselves as intelligent agents, spearheads of God's ever advancing Creation, we agnostics and atheists chose to believe that our human intelligence was the last word, the alpha and the omega, the beginning and the end of all. Rather vain of us, wasn't it?
Big Book pg. 49
When men and women pour so much alcohol into themselves that they destroy their lives, they commit a most unnatural act. Defying their instinctive desire for self-preservation, they seem bent upon self-destruction. They work against their own deepest instinct.
As they are progressively humbled by the terrific beating administered by alcohol, the grace of God can enter them and expel their obsession. Here their powerful instinct to live can cooperate fully with their Creator's desire to give them new life.
The central characteristic of the spiritual experience is that it gives the recipient a new and better motivation out of all proportion to any process of discipline, belief, or faith.
"As Bill Sees It" pg. 246
Creator allow me to experience that total freedom.