I can't stop, I have one
drink and then when it's finished, I have to pour another one.
Itgag
Yupik
We
learned that we had to fully concede to our innermost selves that we were
alcoholics. This is the first step in recovery. The delusion that we are like
other people, or presently may be, has to be smashed.
We
alcoholics are men and women who have lost the ability to control our drinking.
We know that no real alcoholic ever recovers control. All of us felt at times
we were regaining control, but such intervals--usually brief--were inevitably
followed by still less control, which led in time to pitiful and
incomprehensible demoralization. We are convinced to a man that alcoholics of
our type are in the grip of a progressive illness. Over any considerable period
we get worse, never better.
Big
Book pg. 30
No
words can tell of the loneliness and despair I found in that bitter morass of
self-pity. Quicksand stretched around me in all directions. I had met my match.
I had been overwhelmed. Alcohol was my master...
How
dark it is before the dawn! In reality that was the beginning of my last
debauch. I was soon to be catapulted into what I like to call the fourth
dimension of existence. I was to know happiness, peace, and usefulness, in a
way of life that is incredibly more wonderful as time passes.
Big
Book pg. 8
Great
Spirit help us, all power comes from you.