If I was ever going to
gain quality sobriety, I had to rediscover my own native roots at the same
time. I practiced letting go of all the hurt, the resentments, the feelings of
inadequacy. Through the practice of the Twelve Steps of AA, I addressed my own
spirituality.
Al
Cherokee
We
were in a position where life was becoming impossible, and if we had passed
into the region from which there is no return through human aid, we had but two
alternatives: One was to go on to the bitter end, blotting out the
consciousness of our intolerable situation as best we could; and the other, to
accept spiritual help.
Big
Book pg. 24
It
is plain that a life which includes deep resentment leads only to futility and
unhappiness. To the precise extent that we permit these, do we squander the hours
that might have been worth while. But with the alcoholic, whose hope is the
maintenance and growth of a spiritual experience, this business of resentment
is infinitely grave. We found it is fatal. For when harboring such feelings we
shut ourselves off from the sunlight of the Spirit. The insanity of alcohol
returns and we drink again. And with us, to drink is to die.
Big Book
pg. 66
Grandfather,
Grandmother guide our spiritual journey.