"But in the Indian Spirit the land is still vested; it will be
until other men are able to divine and meet its rhythm. Men must be born
and reborn to belong. Their bodies must be formed of the dust of their
forefathers' bones." Luther Standing Bear Oglala Sioux
Thus was I convinced that God is concerned with us humans when we
want Him enough. At long last I saw, I felt, I believed. Scales of pride
and prejudice fell from my eyes. A new world came into
view. The real significance of my experience in the Cathedral burst upon
me. For a brief moment, I had needed and wanted God. There had been a
humble willingness to have Him with me--and He came. But soon the sense of
His presence had been blotted out by worldly clamors, mostly those within
myself. And so it had been ever since. How blind I had
been. At
the hospital I was separated from alcohol for the last time. Treatment
seemed wise, for I showed signs of delirium
tremens. There I humbly offered myself to God, as I then understood Him, to
do with me as He would. I placed myself unreservedly under His care and
direction. I admitted for the first time that of myself I was nothing;
that without Him I was lost. I ruthlessly faced my sins and became willing
to have my new-found Friend take them away, root and branch. I have not
had a drink since. Big Book pgs. 12 & 13 Grandfather help me be willing to walk in a spiritual way.
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