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Grandfather, Great Spirit, once more behold me on earth and lean to
hear my feeble voice. You lived first, and You are older than all need,
older than all prayer...You are the life of all
things." Black Elk Oglala Sioux Almost any A.A. will tell how his affairs have taken remarkable and
unexpected turns for the better as he tried to improve his conscious
contact with God. He will also report that out of every season of grief or
suffering, when the hand of God seemed heavy or even unjust, new lessons
for living were learned, new resources of courage were uncovered, and that
finally, inescapably, the conviction came that God does "move in a
mysterious way his wonders to perform." All this should be very encouraging news for those who recoil from
prayer because they don't believe in it, or because they feel themselves
cut off from God's help and direction. All of us, without exception, pass
through times when we can pray only with the greatest exertion of will.
Occasionally we go even further than this. We are seized with a rebellion
so sickening that we simply won't pray. When these things happen we should
not think too ill of ourselves. We simply resume prayer as soon as we can,
doing what we know to be good for us. Perhaps one of the greatest rewards
of meditation and prayer is the sense of belonging that comes to us. We no longer live in a completely hostile world.
We are no longer lost and frightened and purposeless. The moment we catch
even a glimpse of God's will, the moment we begin to see truth, justice,
and love as the real and eternal things in life, we are no longer deeply
disturbed by all the seeming evidence to the contrary that surrounds us in
purely human affairs. We know that God lovingly watches over us. We know
that when we turn to Him, all will be well with us, here and
hereafter. Twelve Steps & Twelve Traditions pg. 105
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