I
can't stop, I have one drink and then when it's finished, I have to
pour another one. Itgag Yupik We
learned that we had to fully concede to our innermost selves that we were
alcoholics. This is the first step in recovery. The delusion that we are
like other people, or presently may be, has to be
smashed. We
alcoholics are men and women who have lost the ability to control our
drinking. We know that no real alcoholic ever recovers control. All of us
felt at times we were regaining control, but such intervals--usually
brief--were inevitably followed by still less control, which led in time
to pitiful and incomprehensible demoralization. We are convinced to a man
that alcoholics of our type are in the grip of a progressive illness. Over
any considerable period we get worse, never better. Big Book pg. 30 No
words can tell of the loneliness and despair I found in that bitter morass
of self-pity. Quicksand stretched around me in all directions. I had met
my match. I had been overwhelmed. Alcohol was my
master... How dark it is before the dawn! In reality that was the beginning
of my last debauch. I was soon to be catapulted into what I like to call
the fourth dimension of existence. I was to know happiness, peace, and
usefulness, in a way of life that is incredibly more wonderful as time
passes. Big Book pg. 8 Great Spirit help us, all power comes from
you.
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