If
I was ever going to gain quality sobriety, I had to rediscover my own
native roots at the same time. I practiced letting go of all the hurt, the
resentments, the feelings of inadequacy. Through the practice of the
Twelve Steps of AA, I addressed my own
spirituality. Al Cherokee We
were in a position where life was becoming impossible, and if we had
passed into the region from which there is no return through human aid, we
had but two alternatives: One was to go on to the bitter end, blotting out
the consciousness of our intolerable situation as best we could; and the
other, to accept spiritual help. Big Book pg. 24 It
is plain that a life which includes deep resentment leads only to futility
and unhappiness. To the precise extent that we permit these, do we
squander the hours that might have been worth while.
But with the alcoholic, whose hope is the maintenance and growth of
a spiritual experience, this business of resentment is infinitely grave.
We found it is fatal. For when harboring such feelings we shut ourselves
off from the sunlight of the Spirit. The insanity of alcohol returns and
we drink again. And with us, to drink is to
die. Big Book pg. 66 Grandfather, Grandmother guide our spiritual journey.
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