"You will only get back what you give
out." Joe Coyhis
Stockbridge-Munsee Immediately I felt there was something different about Ebby. It was
not only that he was sober. I could not put a finger on what it was. I
offered him a drink and he refused. Then I asked him, "What's this all
about? You say you aren't drinking. But you also say you aren't on the
water wagon, either. What's up? "Well," said Ebby, “I’ve got
religion.” What a crusher that was--Ebby and religion! Maybe his alcoholic
insanity had become religious insanity. It was an awful letdown. I had
been educated at a wonderful engineering college where somehow I had
gathered the impression that man was God. But I had to be polite, so I
said, "What brand of religion have you got, Ebby?" "Oh," he said, "I don't
think it has got any special brand name. I just fell in with a group of
people, the Oxford Groups. I don't go along with all their teachings by
any means. But those folks have given me some wonderful ideas. I learned
that I had to admit I was licked; I learned that I ought to take stock of
myself and confess my defects to another person in confidence; I learned
that I needed to make restitution for the harm I had done others. I was
told that I ought to practice the kind of giving that has no price tag on
it, the giving of yourself to somebody. Now," he added, "I know you are
going to gag on this, but they taught me that I should try to pray to
whatever God I thought there was for the power to carry out these simple
precepts. And if I did not believe there was any God, then I had better
try the experiment of praying to whatever God there might
be. And you know, Bill, it's a queer
thing, but even before I had done all this, just as soon as I decided that
I would try with an open mind, it seemed to me that my drinking problem
was lifted right out of me. AA
Comes Of Age pgs. 58 & 59 Great Sprit open my heart to give.
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